Turning Pain into Beauty

Today, comforted me by taking me on a little retail therapy – a trip to Costco. While I didn’t buy anything, having a friend who cares about my hurting helped a lot. On our way over to Jack in the Box for my other guilty pleasure for myself, I made a very quick phone call to Bob, and we talked for about fifteen minutes. The conversation was really nice. It’s as if the pressure of having to be boyfriends being gone, we could actually talk to each other again. There was the affection in his voice that had been gone for a while. I know that things will never be as they were before, but maybe something new with its own beauty can come from this experience: a true friend.

After the JitB experience, Albadger dropped me off at the Church, where I took advantage of the opportunity to talk to Bishop Elias. He really is a great listener. Actually, both he and Albadger are wonderful listeners. Albadger doesn’t try to offer advice or to fix things, he just listens. He’s a true friend, and I love him profusely. Bishop Elias, on the other hand, has words of wisdom to offer, and is a tremendous comfort.

Then it was time for the service to start. The service is structured on Orthros, known in the west as Matins. It’s a morning service but is performed in the evening – don’t ask me why; I don’t know. Well, with the incense, the intense emotions I’ve been feeling, and having to stay focused and make the words clear and strong, I lost myself in singing. The service is about an hour and fifteen minutes the way I sing it, which is slowly and purposefully, and then it was over. I woke as if from a dream, and gently walked home.

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